My first year of college has come and gone so fast I couldn't even tell you where the time went. It's been quite a world-wind with school and being independent and responsible for my life. Ah! I have to go to a cafeteria, per-say, while trying not to eat awkwardly alone or slip while carrying your plates to be cleaned. There is also the fact that it isn't high school anymore. Touching a great white shark is easier than making friends in class. Not to mention that the first couple weeks of my career was one of the worst times of my life. I never felt so alone in a long time, maybe ever. I even contemplated going back home because it just seemed like I would never make friends. After thinking this over for a couple weeks I realized that I can here because I wanted to explore, be in a place where I only knew enough people to fit on one hand, and to broaden my horizon.
I owe a lot of my social life to my friend Keith. First off he's a ginger. Second he was kind enough to stop at my door, which was open, while I was being nerdy and painting my toes one evening-- alone and ask me to join him and a handful of his friends to go out one evening. As first I was like, "hell no! Who is this boy, asking me to go out with him and his friends which I know no one." Then, I heard the little voice in my head saying, "You have to put yourself out there. Do it! What do you have to loose?" And I did. I went out, had a awesome time with new people and then I realized this was it. I was here.
I have made so many wonderful friends from this one occasion and I am so thankful it happened. I now know so many Greeks and have become best friends with a girl I went to high school will and a girl I've known since my childhood as well as a girl that is their suit-mate. They all have made such a positive impact on my life. We might have gotten into situations that don't need to be spoken again unless they are between us, but hey, that's college for ya. (A phrase I never thought I would EVER say)
It's been such a blast getting to know so many different people from all around the world and country. It's amazing how similar we all are, yet so unique and different. I think that's what I love most about being in the college setting. So now when there comes an opportunity knocking at my door, I gladly will open it to see what it has in store.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Live for Today and Always Cherish the Past
Today is Sunday. Today is also a day that tells me I only have 11 days of school left starting tomorrow. 11 days seems so far away, but with how fast this semester has gone it's not that much out of my reach. A year ago I was thinking about all the wonderful things that were going to happen to me. Some of which were probably far fetched, but none-the-less obtainable-- I just need some more experience in the college setting. A year ago I couldn't have thought about how different I would be just by living in a different city, with different people, and a different life style. I have come to find that living on my own is possible by simply going out there and doing it. Action is what has brought me thus far and I have no intentions on stopping.
A year ago my high school chapter was closing with all the great memories that were knotted in its stitching. I constantly think about them too. Everything that happened within those four years had such an impact on my life that will never be able to be repeated. Even know I continue to adapt to what is thrown at me because no situation is the same even if in the same setting. I could walk back into my high school tomorrow and feel like these things were only stories told to me around a cozy fireplace.
Some of my favorite memories dealt with my comedy group. Everything we did was done with blood, sweat and tears, literally. The two years I got to spend creating joy and happiness with a following larger then our school was incredible. Wearing our jackets meant we were a part of an elite group of talented individuals, people to look up to for guidance, people to strive to be. That's what wearing the jacket meant, but for us, it was just a continuous party. Having the company of wonderful friends that were treated like family, learning dances and songs and trying not to get injures on show day was what we lived for. I still am so happy and it forever changed my life. I see myself as a stronger person because of it. I see my confidence daily because of what the troupe did for me. I created a beautiful thing that no one can take away from me. It's amazing how much I love this troupe. I could talk about how we dressed in a giant tongue for a sketch, or how we had an anger bird close. I would never have been able to do that without them. Each person had strengths that made the team stronger. We clicked, compromised, ate A LOT of Dions Pizza, and just simply lived for the creation of laughter.
High school was so many things for me and I love looking back on what I've accomplished. Graduating with a 3.8, on the honor role, participated in several sports and clubs, was involved in so many things to benefit the school and myself as well as learned more then I could have thought. Now, I look back and smile for everything that happened and re-visit it, but only stay long enough to turn the page to my newest chapter. A year form now I can't wait to see where I'll be.
A year ago my high school chapter was closing with all the great memories that were knotted in its stitching. I constantly think about them too. Everything that happened within those four years had such an impact on my life that will never be able to be repeated. Even know I continue to adapt to what is thrown at me because no situation is the same even if in the same setting. I could walk back into my high school tomorrow and feel like these things were only stories told to me around a cozy fireplace.
Some of my favorite memories dealt with my comedy group. Everything we did was done with blood, sweat and tears, literally. The two years I got to spend creating joy and happiness with a following larger then our school was incredible. Wearing our jackets meant we were a part of an elite group of talented individuals, people to look up to for guidance, people to strive to be. That's what wearing the jacket meant, but for us, it was just a continuous party. Having the company of wonderful friends that were treated like family, learning dances and songs and trying not to get injures on show day was what we lived for. I still am so happy and it forever changed my life. I see myself as a stronger person because of it. I see my confidence daily because of what the troupe did for me. I created a beautiful thing that no one can take away from me. It's amazing how much I love this troupe. I could talk about how we dressed in a giant tongue for a sketch, or how we had an anger bird close. I would never have been able to do that without them. Each person had strengths that made the team stronger. We clicked, compromised, ate A LOT of Dions Pizza, and just simply lived for the creation of laughter.
High school was so many things for me and I love looking back on what I've accomplished. Graduating with a 3.8, on the honor role, participated in several sports and clubs, was involved in so many things to benefit the school and myself as well as learned more then I could have thought. Now, I look back and smile for everything that happened and re-visit it, but only stay long enough to turn the page to my newest chapter. A year form now I can't wait to see where I'll be.
There are so many things to be thankful for. Things we don't even think about, or even notice in our lives. We simply just don't take the time to consider what wonderful things surround us. I feel so self absorbed sometimes that I don't even notice the spectacular things happening around me. What makes it so hard to just give a couple seconds of our days to think about or reflect upon what keeps us going, day in and day out? I just want to know why I can't make this a daily ritual. So, form this moment since I have the hardest time setting time aside to think about what makes my life worth living I'll just talk about it here! To create a habit it takes 21 days to make it part of your day. For day one, here we go!
My parents: These people have raised me with all the grace and love parents should give their children. They constantly want me to succeed even if they might not want me to grow up. They have blessed me with life and a life of such wealth even the richest man on earth can't buy. I'm thankful that they have let me grow up like a child should and let go when they know it was time for me to experience the world. With all of the things they have done for me: getting me ready for school dances, sending me away to college, letting me travel to New York during the summer, I just don't know how God has blessed me with people that willingly and continuously let the world me at my feet. I have no right to not love them. I have no right to ever say "I hate them," because who could hate people that let you become the person you were destined to? Only love and thanks are needed here.
My friends: I'll need a filling cabinet to sort through all the people that have filled my life with so much love and laughter. It's sort of thinking about the sun; the warmth of the rays against your skin, the bright and vibrate color it gives the green leaves on trees, flowers their sweet smells and the the growth it gives to everyone a like. Without them I am 100% sure I would be doing dope on some street corner of downtown Detroit. I want to name everyone right now, but will in later posts. In general, though, the amazing embrace I experience with the countless people in my life give me strength to be who I am.
As for others things I'm thankful for I will continue to be writing about them in the future.
My parents: These people have raised me with all the grace and love parents should give their children. They constantly want me to succeed even if they might not want me to grow up. They have blessed me with life and a life of such wealth even the richest man on earth can't buy. I'm thankful that they have let me grow up like a child should and let go when they know it was time for me to experience the world. With all of the things they have done for me: getting me ready for school dances, sending me away to college, letting me travel to New York during the summer, I just don't know how God has blessed me with people that willingly and continuously let the world me at my feet. I have no right to not love them. I have no right to ever say "I hate them," because who could hate people that let you become the person you were destined to? Only love and thanks are needed here.
My friends: I'll need a filling cabinet to sort through all the people that have filled my life with so much love and laughter. It's sort of thinking about the sun; the warmth of the rays against your skin, the bright and vibrate color it gives the green leaves on trees, flowers their sweet smells and the the growth it gives to everyone a like. Without them I am 100% sure I would be doing dope on some street corner of downtown Detroit. I want to name everyone right now, but will in later posts. In general, though, the amazing embrace I experience with the countless people in my life give me strength to be who I am.
As for others things I'm thankful for I will continue to be writing about them in the future.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Who Do You See?
I always get so wrapped up into what can make my life thrilling and worthwhile. Being young and crazy has its perks and sometimes I wake up on the weekends saying, "I cannot believe that happened last night." Reckless and free without a care in the world sounds so much better than what the actual feeling is like. I find myself contently living a double life; trying to be that honor student with intentions to never do wrong, yet wanting to go out on the weekends with my girls doing things that should be seen on a show like "Jersey Shore."-- Okay, maybe not that intense, but you catch my drift. I don't want to be that prick that never wants to go out, I want to be able to dance, drink, party, meet new people and do outrageous things because I can.
To find a reason to let go and understand why I must put up this wall is beyond me. I want to make mistakes and not expect to be perfect in front of everyone. There is so much to learn from that I feel like one day it will hit me square in the face. I want to be this image of purity and depth, yet I want to be reckless. Maybe I just need someone to show me what I have been missing out on. I need guidance of right and wrong. Is what I'm turning into the person I want to become? Am I just living a dream of being someone I'm not? How will I know which path I've chosen? The comfort zone I've created for myself doesn't allow me to belly flop into life... it only slams me harder into the glass pain that surrounds my perfect little world. I can't subject myself into being sheltered anymore.
To find a reason to let go and understand why I must put up this wall is beyond me. I want to make mistakes and not expect to be perfect in front of everyone. There is so much to learn from that I feel like one day it will hit me square in the face. I want to be this image of purity and depth, yet I want to be reckless. Maybe I just need someone to show me what I have been missing out on. I need guidance of right and wrong. Is what I'm turning into the person I want to become? Am I just living a dream of being someone I'm not? How will I know which path I've chosen? The comfort zone I've created for myself doesn't allow me to belly flop into life... it only slams me harder into the glass pain that surrounds my perfect little world. I can't subject myself into being sheltered anymore.
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